I Should Probably Be Sleeping...

mmkay, so if you've read my blog before you've probably read the one where i talk about my friend from church, kyra. and remember how i said before that i have some pretty good times with her and that she's one of my best friends? yeah. well i forgot to mention some things about her... (let me just say that i still love her like a sister, but sometimes i just wanna pop her little head off!)

so today after church, like usual, i went over to her house until around 8 PM. we did the usual thing, you know, play tanks, watch tv, cook etc. but ugggh! she's so childish! at church she's constantly interfering. we have this arrangement with the church where i watch the nursery kids on the even dates, and she watches them on the odd dates. every time i'm watching them, she's always coming back and saying "i came back to blow my nose" or "i had a headache.." agggh! it's so annoying! she's using that as an excuse to get out of church service. i know why. it's cuz she thinks it's boring. welll... suck it up! and even her parents always make excuses for her. it's her mom, really. every time she acts like this she blames it on what she calls the "only-child syndrome". are you kidding me? that worked when she was like 9, but 13? please. and she thinks she's like super special or something. i know that sounds mean, but i really dont know how else to describe it. she's always trying to show me up in front of people and like bragging to me how she has a "job". yeah, i dont think it counts when you're paid in cash by your mother for vacuuming a carpet in the church every sunday. like no offense to her, but if she actually considers that a real job and she puts her mother in the references section of her resume, her employer is going to laugh at her. and since her family is like super christian, they wont even let kyra listen to any other genre of music except christian contemporary. and she's always making me listen to it with her for HOURS. i have nothing against christian contemporary, i love it. but i dont wanna listen to it 24/7. i'm not allowed to listen to my music when i go on trips with her because it's "bad". and i'm sorry, but the way her parents discipline her is kind of pathetic. and it's not helping her grow, in any way, at all. and the fact that her two grandparents live with her and buy her anything she wants is not helping either.

i'm not saying i dont like kyra. but... she can just be really really obnoxious. she can be fun, she has her moments. but the thing that bothers me about her the most is that she's soooo immature. she's only one year younger than me and she watches like a billion of those anime crap shows and something "angel wars" or some type of crap like that. she calls herself an "anime-ist" bc she draws alott of anime characters that she makes up herself. i'm sorry, but i HATE ANIME. hate it. and earlier when we were going up the stairs she was huffing and panting and i was like "we gotta get you into some sports girl!" and she was like "i do sports! every tuesday i go to kids sports. we do jump rope, hopscotch..." are you kidding me? hop scotch? and everything has to be done for her. she's like that bc her mom is always insisting that she does everything for her. she packs her suitcase for her, makes her all her meals for her, she even homeschools her instead of sending her to public school which would give her social skills instead of keeping her unexposed to the real world like a freaking penguin stuck in a snow globe.

alright, i'm gonna stop now bc i dont want you to think that i hate her bc i dont. i just had to type that in a blog bc this was really bothering me and now.. there you go!

~ Emily

I Love This Giraffe!

la dee da dee daah...

so it's 12:13 right now and i'm still doing my honors english homework. FML. ugh, mrs. deliman has just taken over my life! i have like no time to hang out with my friends anymore because i'm always stuck doing her homework and other crap. i'm so tired too, i just wanna sleep and sleep sleep... and right now i just wanna run away to somewhere, anywhere's fine with me, and dont come back. atleast not for a while anyway.

eewww.. i got this mosquito bite on my leg, and idk why but i scratched it once and it just like burst open. i know...! it's sooo gross. dont you usually have to scratch it like alottt for that to happen? i only scratched it once, and really lightly too! and it's soo nasty.. sorry, but i.. i just had to share that hahaa

okay so lately i have been having an obsession with photography. i love going on photobucket and just looking at photography. but i hate it when people just post themselves into the "best of photography" section, as if they're cool or something. i like the interesting pictures. like on my bestie's tumblr, she always has alott of cool pictures. i found one picture that i like. REALLY LIKE actually. it's my favorite out of my entire photography folder. it's a giraffe, but it's really up-close and interesting =)

~ Emily

Any Ideas For A New Nail Design?

today was funn =)

on my way back to my locker from lunch, nicole grabs my arm from behind and i didnt know it was her. so i thought that i was about to get raped or something hahah and the whole way to spanish she was laughing at me ahahaha =D then in science, this guy who sits behind me grabs my hand and looked at my zebra nails and he was like "daaayum giirl! them sh*ts are hott!" HAHAHAHAHAHA. plus for lunch today, i had chicken & broccoli with some snow peas and pork. and i had some wonton soup<3 this morning i actually woke up and i was like "it cant honestly still be september..." but today was actually funny loll. but srsly, i just want september to be over and done with!

i'm finished all my homework, and so i'm sitting here listening to lullabies. i dont know why but i really LOVE them. they're so relaxing and sweet. and i love the two christmas songs sung by becky jean williams. her voice makes all the difference (= and for some reason, lately i've been constantly listening to love the way you lie. i really like the chorus and the last verse. while i'm bored at school i sing it in my head ahahaa.

i'm trying to think of another nail design to try. i kinda wanna do another animal print one, but i'm not sure. i wanna try something fun. like a pink cheetah print? i probably cant do that tho hahaa too hard. but i'm really loving my zebra nails =D i wanna paint other people's nails. all i've done are my own, i've never painted other people's nails =(

~ Emily

Do Your Best & Guess =)

alright, so i'm gonna tell you about someone. let's see if you can guess who it is =)

she's pretty much been there for me through thick and through thin. when i couldnt possibly stand my parents for another second, she was there. when my cat died, she was there. when my dog who i've had all my life died, she was there. when all i wanted to do was curl up into a ball & cry because i hated my life, she was there. we started a notebook. we would exchange it at school every day and write a diary entry in it every night talking about our innermost feelings and desires hahaa. and we would add funny drawings, quotes, and lyrics. but lately we havent been writing in it because we dont get a chance to see each other during or after school )= so i guess we decided that blogs would help that problem lol. she reads mine & i read hers. i can talk to her about pretty much everything and she's so laughy & easygoing and i love that about her. she's obsessed with music (especially all time low) which is great because i love music too. i think we can both be content and have a fun time just sitting at one another's houses, eating and talking. it's one of the joys of our lives ahaha she sounds amazing, right? wait till you hear what she has to put up with...

i'm pessimistic. i get jealous. i'm not very self-confident. even though she tells me that i'm pretty, i always say "i'm not" because i dont think i am. i hold grudges sometimes. every now and then i'm mean, just because i want to be. i'm awkward. and shy. i'm so paranoid. it's only a matter of time before i'm diagnosed with OCD. i get emotional too easily. my face is covered in extremely unattractive zits. even though i'm proud of my religion and i'm not afraid to show it, i'm sure it probably annoys people. i'm an obstinate person. i can be selfish. i've lied. one day i'm gonna get fatter than i already am from how much i love and talk about food. i have $7 on my dresser right now. it's not mine.. it's my mother's. i took it from her wallet /=

so even though i'm all those things, and i've done all those things, this person still decides that she wants to have anything to do with me. thank you for putting up with my crap and being my bestfriend all these years =)

did you guess who it is yet? it's nicole brianne smith<3

~ Emily

Soup Sounds Good Right Now...

yaay! new nail design (= i did white nail polish for a base coat, and then i used black to make a zebra design. i kinda screwed up on some of them. the stripes look too thick, but overall i really like it =D

tonight i made baked shells. it was supposed to be baked ziti, but my mom didnt buy the ziti noodles like i asked her to. she's like "i forgot!" even though it was the first thing i wrote on the list for her to get... >:/ so at the last minute i had to run to the dollar store and since they didnt have any ziti noodles i had to get mini shells. it still tasted good though =) mmm, ricotta and tomato sauce is a great combination <3

i cant believe i already have a major book report thingy due in october. it's like really hard tho. it's not like any book report i've done before. my english teacher's like a drill sergeant and she's having us do this 5-page essay on our independent reading book. she calls it a literay analysis. i'm not even done my book yet. that's cuz it was a requirement that it be over 300 pages! i planned to read some more of it today, but i fell asleep.. hahah

yesterday i had my third varsity game. we won again =) i think it was 47 to 30? or it was 42, i'm not sure. i kinda hate it though because now that i'm a varsity cheerleader i have to spend the entire game cheering and not hanging out with my friends =( i only get to be with them at half-time and that's only for like 10 or 15 minutes. when i say "them" i mean my bestfriend nicole smith<3 i miss her soo much! i dont have like any classes with her this year. only two: career prep & spanish 2. it really suckss.

hmmm, i want wonton soup <3

~ Emily

We Are! PENN STATE!

just got off school. actually i got off around an hour ago, but you know what i mean. it was the usual, nothing special.. just, you know.

math class is actually a little better now. before it was freaking boring, but it's kinda better now because... i think it's because my little group of friends and i are like connecting with the teacher. by connecting i dont mean by asking more lesson-related questions to understand it or whatever, but we ask her other questions and we're always together in the class and laughing about random things. like the other day we called over miss. maziarz (that's her name) and we were just like "how many tattoos do you have?" and she just tells us and doesnt feel awkward or anything and it was actually pretty funny. but my favorite class is still honors english =)

♫ just gonna stand there and watch me burn, and that's alright because i like the way it hurts. just gonna stand there and watch me cry, and that's alright because i love the way you lie ♫ (Eminem ft. Rihanna)

tonight's back-to-school night too. my mom said she was going. so did my dad, but i dont know if he is haha he always says stuff and then changes his mind later. i didnt think he would even want to. he hates all those school event things ahah but i hope he does because then i'll be home by myself! paaartaay! =D nah, i'm probly just gonna chomp on rice & chicken and blast music or watch tv. or both, hahah.

i miss my bestie! she's sick & has been absent from school for the past 2 days. we only have like 2 classes together, and i miss her in career prep! =(

ooh! and i'm excited because in like a little over a month i'm gonna go up to penn state university and visit my sister! she's a freshman, just like me (=

~ Emily

Cheer Practice and Ghetto Ice Cream Sandwiches

blah. i have cheer practice in like 2 hours. i reaaally dont wanna go. just too tired. i dont feel like jumping ahah. but the good news is that i actually didnt have alott of homework today. i finished it all before 3:30 lol. and mmm, i just had a vanilla icecream sandwich <3 i found this picture of a box of icecream sandwiches, and i thought the brand name was funny. maybe thats the kind of icecream sandwiches they have in the ghetto!

yesterday after church i went to kyra's house again. i have some really fun times with that girl =) for lunch we heated up leftover ribs that were like COVERED in barbeque sauce from the church meet & greet. they were soooo good. like beyond tasty. i wish i had some right now. we played tanks on wii play for hours. we had a carwash yesterday, even tho it was like about to rain hahah and got soaked bc she kept grabbing the hose from me and so the water and soap suds were getting everywhere. for dinner her mom made chicken parmesan with noodles and garlic bread (yummmmm!) <3 it's becoming, actually became, a weekly thing when i go to her house until like 8 after church.

~ Emily